So if you’ve been following the blog, instagram or Facebook page; you’ll know that I’m hoping to turn this food sharing hobby into a career. I’m still job hunting but, as cheesy as it sounds, I just know I’m meant for more than a 9-5 where the only joy of the job is “thinking of the money”.
SO! With that in mind, I’ve realised that to achieve this I have to get out of my comfort zone. By nature I’m self conscious, introverted and can be socially awkward/anxious (it’s a strange irrational fear of people judging me, I was bullied a lot in high school so I guess I have those lovely people to thank for it). I can write anything on here, writing is the easy part, but when you put me in front of a person or a camera; it’s a whole other story. Cue nervous , tense, terrified of and convinced that the scary person in front of you is silently judging you.
But if I want to make this into a career I need to overcome these issues. I failed in the past by 1. Pretending those issues weren’t there and assigning my failings to everyone else instead of me and 2. If I did acknowledge them, I tried to change them all at once which was too much too soon. So now I’m taking it one step at a time; starting with overcoming the camera fear.
I’ve wanted to do a series of YouTube videos for ages, but I’ve always chickened out and put it off. No more I say, if I wanna succeed, I gotta get my face and em, “delightful” Scottish accent out there! So yesterday I made my first video, its just me saying hello and laying out my goals for the channel, it felt like a good place to start. I was so nervous and self conscious that this tiny 2 minute video took around 20 attempts, the fact that I actually posted it is a huge step and victory for me.
Click here or on the doodle below to go to the video and show some love (I know it’s not perfect but that’s the idea, I’m a real person and I want you to see that)